Monday, March 29, 2010

Day 4: The Ego

Welcome to Day 4 of our 40 Day Retreat 2010. Yesterday, I spoke about consciousness, a consciousness of all possibilities, and that consciousness within us is a consciousness of all possibilities.

Today, I want to speak about what moves the consciousness. What moves the consciousness to action? What gives it the drive to do? The subject is, the ego. Let us take a moment to reflect on what the ego is. Ego is the consciousness of Self. It gives us Self-consciousness – that I am separate from another. In Sanskrit it is Ahankaar whichmeans the “I” maker, the “I” making principle.

Know that You are the Ego

We need to understand what this ego is because sometimes when we talk about ego, we refer to it almost as a second person, and not that “I am the ego”. We say sometimes, “Oh the ego gets at me”. We do not think that “I am the ego”. I want you to reflect on the fact that you are the ego. The ego is listening and the ego is speaking. So long as you have a sense of self, self identity, you are expressing an ego. Begin to identity with you, whether you are the thinker, the feeling person, or the active person. Whatever you are, you are the ego. It is nice when you know that you are the ego. You assume responsibility for the ego.

Whatever your ego is in this moment, it is a result of all the experiences you have had, all the behavioural patterns you have created, all your thoughts and feelings and attitudes. The sum total of all that is who you are is the ego. We hear the expression sometimes, “Oh, I do not have an ego, that person has an ego.” Well, we all have egos. What you really mean is that you are not egotistic. You are not asserting the ego in a selfish way, that is what you mean. But it is good when you understand what you mean. It is not that you do not have an ego but it is not expressed in a selfish way.

Ego Covers the Whole Spectrum of Self-consciousness

Therefore, there is a selfish aspect to the ego and there is a selfless aspect to the ego. There is a lower aspect to the ego which means limited and there is a higher or selfless aspect of the ego. The ego covers the whole spectrum of Self-consciousness. So what you are actually shaping or molding in terms of your being is the ego.

Who do you think is the observer within you? When we say, come into the space of the observer, who do you think is the observer within you? The ego! Who do you think is the Higher Self within you? It is the ego. Who do you think is the pure being within you? It is the ego. Do not think about destroying the ego; think about transforming the ego.

A Deeper Understanding of the Ego

The ego exists in the Higher Self. The ego needs to be purified; it needs to be made selfless. It needs to reflect the best qualities of your inner being, of your essence. It is the ego that is existing in your consciousness. It is what drives the consciousness. It is what you are; it is what you are expressing. It is what you are trying to transform, it is what you are trying to mould. And that same ego is the one that is the seeker. It is the one that is seeking the change. Your ego is really seeking to transform itself. It is seeking to bring out its best qualities from inside. It is seeking to be the most perfect instrument of the Higher Self.

The whole Universe itself has an ego. Anything that is created and exists in a form and has any idea of self-consciousness has an ego. The whole Universe that is created and is visible and active has an ego. We call that Ego, God: God the Creator, God the Sustainer, God the Bestower of Grace. We call that Super Ego, God. What we are trying to do is merge into that Super Being that we refer to as Supreme Being.

Powerful Tools of the Ego

The ego within you has several tools to work with. It is a very powerful being as the Creator of the Universe is powerful. So too is your ego; it is a reflection of that bigger One. That is why we say that we are co-creators with the Universe. This little ego inside has power. It has the power to build and the power to destroy. It has power! So you, my dear friends, have power. The only thing is that you destroy yourselves in using it. When you have power you have to be careful. When you have powerful tools within you, you need to be careful how you use them.

What are the tools that you have? In the Vedantic teachings one of the most powerful tools that the ego has is called Buddhi - Intelligence, the reasoning power. You have reasoning power. You have the intellect. It is the most powerful tool that the ego carries. And it has the ability to store information. You are able to store information in your consciousness. It is the storehouse of all knowledge and all information. We call it that sub-conscious field, the memory field. But your very being is able to store all information. The Universe stores all its information; all the past is there. And if you do not know it already, all your future possibilities are there. Past, present and future already exist in a continuum. But this is a topic we can discuss later on.

Ego needs to Understand its own Power

It is an amazing Universe, an amazing consciousness. But what is more important is you, the ego and its search for freedom; its search for itself for deeper meaning. These tools need to be understood. The ego needs to understand its own power. If it does not, it can slowly destroy itself. That is what we do every day. We destroy physical bodies; we store all kinds of content that are destructive. In our inner being, our inner consciousness all the patterns of thoughts and emotions are stored within you as imprints and behavioural patterns of the ego. They are also chemically coded in your physical body. That is why behaviours are so natural. We need to be able to see all these patterns of behaviour that we have created and that are inside of us in our ego. And when our ego identifies with a pattern we become that. Sometimes we become monsters; sometimes we become saints depending on the pattern of the ego we identify with. There is an energy pattern inside.

Know Your Ego, Know Yourself

The goal is to understand the power that we carry and to protect ourselves from the destruction that we can create. It is extremely important to understand ourselves, to understand the ego and to learn to use this ego in a way that we can increase our power of goodness, of wisdom, and to protect ourselves from the destructive part of ourselves.

This is an exciting subject. But today, I want you to be conscious that the one we are transforming inside is our own self, and all of life is about the ego. When we become enlightened, when we become free, it is the ego that is now immersed in the Self. It is connected to the Higher Self in such a powerful way; it assumes the nature of the Higher Self. It reflects the best of the Higher Self. That is what we call yoga, that union with the Higher Self. This much I will say today.

My deepest wish is that you can understand this subject because it is all about you, the seeker and the possibilities in the consciousness.

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Day 4: The Ego

2 Comments/Questions:

Anonymous said...

Namaskar Guru, I have a question about the sacred conversation of day 4: Both Indu and a woman after her (manzu or something?) asked a question about what causes that it is so difficult to change certain patterns within us, or what holds us back from freedom? You replied it had to do with lacking of stronger motivsational patterns within us to overcome our weaknesses, and with attachment to the wolrd. My question: but why do we have attachment to painful and limiting patterns within us? Will only a bigger amount of pain motivate us to rise above these patterns? Why are we so attached to limiting patterns? love, Gauri

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